Ramblings of a future mermaid

Exams!

2006-06-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

Hello all!

Well, its June and exam time is here, actually exam time started on the 20th of May for me but my wonderful body decided to become extremely ill for that exam so I had to go home and recover for a few days.
So after recovering from that I came back to Swansea and began revision for the exams I began today. This afternoon I had 2 exams (because my uni is mean), they didn't go completely wrong which is always a good sign, I ran out of things to say for one essay though.

But no rest for the wicked I now have to revise for my next 3 exams which begin on Monday.

Apart from revision and sleep I really haven't managed to do much else although I did go and see Xmen 3: The last stand at the cinema the other day, it was really good, if you like that sort of film. If you do go and see it make sure you stay for the whole of the very long credits and watch the very very last bit of the film...I feel it is important!

A little bit of a song for you!

2006-04-23T12:55:00.000-07:00

Oh look at how she listens
She says nothing of what she thinks
She just goes stumbling through her memories
Staring out on to Grey Street.
She thinks, "Hey, how did I come to this?"
I dream myself a thousand times around the world
But I can't get out of this place.

There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

How she wishes it was different
She prays to God most every night
And though she swears it doesn't listen
There's still a hope in her it might
She says "I pray But they fall on deaf ears,
am I supposed to take it on myself?
To get out of this place? "

There's lonliness inside her
And she'll do anything to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It feels like cold blue ice in her heart
When all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart

There's a stranger speaks outside her door
Says take what you can from your dreams
Make them as real as anything
It'd take the work out of courage
But she says "Please
There's a crazy man that's creeping outside my door,
I live on the corner of Grey Street
And the end of the world. "

There's an emptiness inside her
And she'll do anyrthing to fill it in
And though it's red blood bleeding from her now
It's more like cold blue ice in her heart
She feels like kicking out all the windows
And setting fire to this life
She could change everything about her
Using colors bold and bright
But all the colors mix together - to grey
And it breaks her heart
It breaks her heart
To Grey

I'm really not very good at this blog thing...

2006-04-22T18:44:00.000-07:00

it has once again been ages since I last wrote anything on here. In fact since the last time I posted on here I have been home for easter and come back to uni.
So I can't really be bothered to write about everything that has happened...but life has generally carried on as usual with badgers and squirels everywhere.
Most of my friends are back here in swansea now so the next few days should be quite eventful and most probably full of drinking.

An update...finally!

2006-03-20T13:07:00.000-08:00

Well hello all!

I have no real excuses for my lack of update this time. Its been 2 or 3 weeks which is scary, time goes so fast. The couple of weeks immediately after I last updated were filled with work and little sleep, however I managed to cope and my sanity is...(I was going to say still intact...), well its not got any worse anyway!

Last weekend I went to Crufts with my mum. I had finished all my work so it was great to have a girly weekend away where I could really really relax. Crufts was fun, we did loads of shopping and saw more dogs than it would be possible to count. On saturday night we stayed in a hotel right in the centre of Birmingham, this was good as we were able to go have a drink and a bit of a wander round after we got to the hotel.

The week and weekend just gone have been a bit more relaxed than I expected, not a great deal of work has been set (which makes me think I'll be getting loads this week) and I've been able to relax a bit. I spent the weekend watching films and driving round the gower beaches, which was nice.

Now I only have one week of term left until the easter holidays, which is a bit scary but I'm looking forward to it.

I have run out of things to ramble about now and should probably get back to my relaxing.

A quick update and a bit of a rant.

2006-03-01T23:06:00.000-08:00

Well once again it has been ages since I last updated, so my apologies for that.
Its been a pretty hectic couple of weeks, my lecturers seem intent on driving us all to the limit of nervous breakdown from pure amount of impossible work and ridiculous deadlines.
One lecturer in particular has set me an unbelievably stupid piece of work that has driven me absolutely insane tonight and I think my brain has in fact become so fed up with me that its left.

Other than crazy amounts of work I haven't done a great deal, last weekend Josh came to visit me, it was really nice to spend a weekend just relaxing a spending time together. We had no special plans so just spent some time having fun and not worrying about anything...which makes a change for me!

This weekend coming up I am hopefully going to Lydstep with my Mum and Dad, which I'm really looking forward to because I haven't seen them since christmas and I miss them a lot. I also get to see my dog Rolo who I have missed so much and I just can't wait to see him. However I feel this trip may only occur if it decides to stop snowing here.

On that note, what is with this crazy weather? I decide to leave the house, I look out the window-its bright and clear. I leave the house, its starting to drizzle a bit...no problem, its not too bad. I keep walking, it starts hailing, not just normal hail...hail that gets blown in your face and stings you. About 15mins from uni and it starts to snow heavily. I walk in the doors at uni and it stops. So I'm drenched, with a sore face and freezing cold and the sun bloody comes out again as I walk inside! Now you might think that this was quite funny, which it was, however its now happened about 5 times...why does the weather hate me?

Right...rant over!

Weekend with Josh!

2006-02-15T23:02:00.000-08:00

Oh dear, I haven't updated for so long!

Well I can't really remember whats happened since I last updated so I will just tell you about this weekend.

I went to Egham on thursday last week to see Josh, we spent thursday evening in Medicine playing pool and having some drinks. On Friday Luke and Emma had a party for thier friend Sophies birthday and much fun was had by all, I proved that I am most twisted by winning twister! On saturday we went dress shopping so I could get something to wear to a Ball on saturday night, the ball was good but the drinks were hideously expensive, so not much was drunk! On sunday we had pizza...finally seen as I'd been waiting for it all weekend!
Apart from that we spent most of our time watching LOST, which I'm now addicted to and just relaxing together.

I've spent most of this week attempting to do my essay, which I have now finished, yey! On monday night I went to envy with many friends and that was very fun as always.

Random

2006-02-01T11:45:00.000-08:00

Well I haven't updated for a while, mainly because I've been quite busy or really tired!

On monday night I went to Time and Envy in Swansea (although I spent the whole night in envy as I hate time). So many of my friends were there and it was a really good night. I left at about 2.30 with Brian, We then hung about at my house until the rest of his house came to meet him, It was about 4am when I realised that I had a 9am lecture and threw them out of my room!

Amazingly I managed to get up and walk to my lecture on Tuesday morning, after the lecture I did come home and sleep for quite a while though. After catching up on my sleep I finished a project that is due in and then watched The O.C.
It took me about 3 hours to make my dinner last night, I made a pasta bake which should have taken about 45mins but people kept ringing me every 5 minutes. So although I started cooking at about 6.30 I didn't manage to eat until 9 because I kept having to stop and turn everything off.

I am now in the Library at uni inbetween lectures, I don't seem to be able to give my project in because the office is closed, which is useless!

On that note I should probably go see if its open and then head towards my next lecture.

Weekend!

2006-01-30T16:22:00.000-08:00

This weekend just gone has been highly exciting. Josh arrived on friday evening and I cooked him a meal, we then went round a friends house for a few drinks and end of exam celebrations. On Saturday Josh and I went into town and had a wander round the shops which was really nice, in the evening we had pizza and then a few friends came round.
Yesterday Josh and I cooked a huge sunday dinner which was sooo delicious, I was very impressed with our cooking skills, except now I have a freezer full of little yorkshire puddings because they were on special offer so I bought loads...opps!
Last night we went to the pub with some friends and Josh left this morning.
So now back to uni and lectures, and work which I really must be getting on with.
On that topic I must stop rambling on here and avoiding my work.

End of exams!

2006-01-27T15:20:00.000-08:00

Well I have finally finished my exams, and to my suprise only one of them went badly.
So I spent yesterday afternoon relaxing, Matt and I went on a road trip and bought many exciting things including a subway which was so delicious (in fact just thinking about it is making me want one).

In the evening I met lots of my friends in JC's (our uni bar) for a few drinks and general celebrations for the end of exams. I did however feel very sober because everyone else was insanely drunk and I wasn't.

Today I had my first lie in for about 3 months, it was truly amazing! Now I'm waiting for Josh to arrive, as he is visiting this weekend and doing some research for an essay that is long overdue!

Boing!

2006-01-25T18:49:00.000-08:00

I have spent today frantically trying to learn the things I need to know for my last exam tomorrow morning, I think I may have failed but I guess we'll find that out tomorrow.

So I don't really have that much to write on here, my day has been extreamly boring. I did however get a really good nights sleep last night, which is pretty impressive, for me anyway.

Well...thats about it really, now I'm going to bounce around for a little while before watching some tv.

I'm so tired!!

2006-01-24T22:17:00.000-08:00

Well today I got up nice and early for my exam and wondered into uni with some friends from my course. The first thing they said to me was "Are you hungover?" because I looked so awful after getting hardly any sleep (no change there).
It could've been worse, I did manage to get about an hour and a half of sleep. Then I woke up and was kept awake but some very loud and disturbing noises from Matts room downstairs...I wonder what they were up to!?

The exam was the worst so far, I had 3 essay questions to chose from and felt like I couldn't answer any of them, I just didn't know enough detail to write essays on the topics he set questions on. So after 45 minutes of attempting to ramble and pretend I knew what I was talking about, I left to return some books to the library because aparently they have currently blocked me from borrowing anymore due to the fact that I owe them £1.50!

I was barely home for 5 minutes before I fell asleep, which was much needed but I really really wish that it would happen at night.

Now I'm going to listen to music before I go to bed because I have no book to read. If anyone has any suggestions of a good book for me to read I'd really appriciate it because I can't decide what I should read next.

Can't think of a title!

2006-01-23T23:16:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired that my body is aching, especially my legs, which is strange because I have done nothing but revision and watching tv today.

Matt built a fort out of boxes and blankets in our sitting room earlier today, its quite impressive and fun to sit in (although sitting in it is quite possibly what has made my legs ache) but it also takes up most of the room and a chair seems to have been lost somewhere in the walls as well as our washing drying thingy (you know what I mean), which he dismantled in order to provide support for one of the walls. But it took up an hour of his day building it and an hour of mine watching him.

This evening Matt, Kirsty and I sat and watched tv until Kirsty's friend Stacey came round. We played cards together for a while and now I'm going to bed ready for my exam, which is tomorrow and not today!

An entry in the form of song lyrics...

2006-01-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

They painted up your secrets
With the lies they told to you
And the least they ever gave you
Was the most you ever knew

And I wonder where these dreams go
When the world get's in your way
What's the point in all this screaming?
No one's listening anyway

Your voice is small and fading
And you hide in here alone
And your mother loves your father
'Cause she's got nowhere to go

And she wonders where these dreams go
'Cause the world got in her way
What's the point in ever trying?
Nothing's changing anyway

They press their lips against you
And you love the lies they say
And I tried so hard to reach you
But you're falling anyway

And you know I see right through you
'Cause the world gets in your way
What's the point in all the screaming?
You're not listening anyway

And now I'm going to play cards with my housemates.

Opps!

2006-01-23T12:22:00.000-08:00

Well I got up extra early this morning in order to slowly and calmly prepare myself for my exam that I had this morning. About an hour after getting up I checked my exam timetable online to see where my exam was, at that point I discovered that my exam is tomorrow not today...opps! Never mind, at least I got to go back to bed and get much more sleep.

Now I must get on with my revision...

The last few days...

2006-01-20T17:57:00.000-08:00

have left me feeling completely exhausted. On Wednesday after my exam I decided that I would go out with some friends to celebrate being half way through. We just went to the pub and then back to thier house for a little while, it was really fun, the first really good night out I've had in ages.
I then spent yesterday feeling really ill, and trying desperately hard to revise. Untill about 7.30pm when I met some friends in our uni bar where we sat and had a good laugh until they kicked us out. Then I went back to my friend Brians house to watch some Jam and Spaced since we recently discovered that we share a similar sense of humour...slightly warped is probably the best description.

Today I have spent nearly the whole day revising and now I really want to go to bed...but its only 6pm so I really can't!

Stupid swansea council!

2006-01-18T16:00:00.000-08:00

The stupid council of the city of Swansea has decided to stop students getting parking permits so that it is now impossible for me to park anywhere near my house, instead I have to park in a whole other road. Not only this but when I ring them up to talk about this they are unbeleivably unhelpful and annoying. The majority of the people who live in this area of swansea are students, all the cars are student cars, why have they decided upon a stupid rule like that!?

On top of that my boiler broke today, leaving me and my housemates with no hot water or heating, lukily I haven't been in that much today but unluckily my hair really really needed washing!

But today has not all been bad, I had an exam that went very well, got some coursework back that I got good marks in and did some more bonding with our new housemate. Plus the boiler man is now here fixing the boiler!

On the topic of my new housemate, I discovered today that she's going out with a 36 year old with a wife and kids, and another girlfriend as well as her. I feel like I'm living with someone out of a soap. I guess it will give her some exciting things to talk to me about.

Exams!

2006-01-17T22:31:00.000-08:00

Well back into the normal swansea lifestyle now, spent the majority of the day in my pjamas and didn't get changed and go outside until about 6pm. Then spent the whole evening in front of the tv with matt...I missed The O.C. so much!

Yesterday I had my first exam and was worryingly relaxed about it, it went fine...I was able to ramble on about couter-current systems in fish for over 2 pages. Tomorrow I have my next exam and feel that this one won't go so well seen as despite how hard I have tried to revise it I just can't seem to learn anything.

A couple of days after Matt and I had moved back into our house last week, I discovered that someone had moved into our spare room. It was quite a shock when I burst in there (to look out the back window, not because I was being weird and running around our house like a crazy person!) and fell over someones suitcase. Would it not have been nice of our letting agency to inform us!? Anyway, a few hours after that the new-comer to our lovely house came home, her name is kat and she seems really nice although stays in her room and doesn't talk to us a great deal. Last night we thought she had gone to bed when she suddenly came in the door at 2am...we have come up with many suggestions as to where she was, especially seen as one of the first things she asked me was if its ok for her to have sex when other people are home!

Now I really should get back to the joys of molecular ecology!

Back to Swansea!

2006-01-13T11:32:00.000-08:00

Well, I'm all packed and ready to leave. I only just managed to get everything in my car and I have a horrible feeling that it may all fall on me and kill me if I break too hard!
Hoping that there won't be traffic at all on my journey as I will probably get so bored that I'll be forced to eat my hand.

And now I have to go to the dentists, oh joy!

Sleep!

2006-01-12T09:36:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling very happy today, I actually got a reasonably good nights sleep last night. YEY!

I'm supposed to be packing to go back to Swansea today but it seems that I have spread my stuff throughout the whole of my parents house and doubt that I'll ever manage to find it all :( I may infact get lost myself!
Also I seem to have far too much stuff, how did I get all this, where am I going to put it all?!

New Phone.

2006-01-11T10:29:00.000-08:00

Yey! I finally have a decent phone, didn't have much luck with phones last year, they just seemed to keep breaking. Hopefully this year will better, although my new phone is a bit crazy, has many weird things on it, including one which tells you what mood you're going to be in each day(?!)
However it does also have pretty multicoloured writing!
So anyone who might have been expecting to hear from me and hasn't its probably because I lost some numbers when my old phone broke a few weeks ago, or I don't want to talk to you. You can decide which!

My insomnia is definately getting worse again, last night I lay awake nearly all night despite taking sleeping pills and then woke up at 6.30, I think I got about and hour and a half of sleep. Argh!
So now I'm insanely tired and have to revise! I think I might try sleeping this afternoon and then working tonight.

Last night I went round to Josh's house, which was fun. We watched some Hustle, which I hadn't watched for ages and I forgot how good it is. I love the twists at the end and how you don't realise who they are tricking until the last bit.

Anyways...back to revision!

Insomnia

2006-01-10T09:36:00.000-08:00

Well once again I am suffering from insomnia, only this time it seems to be slightly worse. Last night despite the fact that I was unbelievably tired it took me ages to get to sleep and then when I did I had horrible dreams. I then woke up and had a minor but long panic attack and didn't manage to sleep again untill 6.30am.
Insomnia can very quickly get you into a state where you never really feel awake or asleep. Everything becomes a blur and you don't feel like doing anything. You can stare at a page of writing for hours and only manage to read one scentence despite your efforts. After a couple of months of not sleeping last term I am terrified of the fact that I seem to be going back to that now.

From the above paragraph you can probably tell why I'm also terrified about the fact that my exams start in less than a week, it seems impossible now that I could do ok in these but hopefully I will be ok.

On that note I must now get on with my revision.

My head....

2006-01-09T00:08:00.000-08:00

..is about to explode. I currently have the worst headache of my life, its so bad that I think my eyes are actually shaking!

Anyway, on other topics, its Monday, this means I only have one week until my exams start :( and so much revision left to do in that time. I feel my revision is going ok, I do some everyday (apart from yesterday, that will be explained shortly) and it seems to actually be going into and staying in my head. However sub-conciously I must be feeling that it is not going ok because I have once again began suffering from insomnia, argh!

On brighter notes, yesterday my dad decided to take my mum, Josh and I out for the day. It was...wet, we went for a walk in the rain! Putting the rain aside though we actually had a really good day. We had lunch out after our walk and then came back here and watched a film.

I must leave this here for now because my dad seems to have forgotten everything today and I have to drive a few things to his office for him!

Feeling let down...

2006-01-06T10:54:00.000-08:00

last night wasn't a nice night out with my friends in the end after all. When I had managed to convince myself that I really wanted to go and really needed to get out of the house and have a good time I got messages from my friends saying that actually they couldn't be bothered...lovely!

Never mind, instead I went round Josh's and we then went and had a drink in the canal bar before going to Rio's burger bar to cheer us up-yum!

Tonight Josh and I are going for a curry with my parents and some friends, which should be quite fun. Then I will hopefully be going round my brothers house to play lots of computer games with people that will be much better than me!

And thats about it, so now I should really get back to my revision :(

New Blog!

2006-01-05T17:43:00.000-08:00

Hello!

I was finally pursuaded to get one of these bloggy things and so here it is, in all its glory (?!)
I'm not really sure what it is I'm supposed to write in here, I suppose its really just to let everyone know what I'm doing. Although surely if you're reading this then you know me and probably know what I've been up to!?

Last night I went round Josh's house and we watched Bill Bailey's bewilderness DVD, it was so funny, I love that man!
This evening I was supposed to be meeting up with some friends who I haven't seen for ages, but one of them can't come anymore and one is only coming at 11.30 so I'm not really sure whats going on. But I have invited some other people so all should be good. I have pursuaded my mum that she wants to come and get me at 1 in the morning so I can actually drink for once, which will be fun!

Apart from that all I'm doing at the moment is revising, or pretending to at least.

Under the sea!

2006-01-04T21:00:00.000-08:00

It is much better down where its wetter, under the sea!

I like the sea because it is blue and my lifetime ambition is to become a mermaid!

Enough said.